God, I don’t know, But I’ll Trust you.

Trust is a huge issue. If I trust God is big enough, powerful enough and loving enough, to take care of me, then I shouldn’t be filled with worry. When I worry I am saying to God with my actions that I don’t trust Him. but so often i do. as the father said to Jesus about healing his son, “I believe, help my unbelief.”

Faith is huge.

It is the assurance of things hoped for, the conviction of things not seen. without it, we cannot please God, not only cannot but the bible says “For without faith it is impossible to please God, for whoever believes in God must believe He exists and that He is a rewarder of those who diligently seek Him.” This faith is a life altering faith. It’s humbling, knowing that you can’t control so much of your life. Circumstances come and go and we have to trust God by faith.


“By God’s grace I can do it, I will not quit” -Wendell Calder


It’s not blind, but it leaves you vulnerable. And how great that truly is. I wanna be aware of how vulnerable I am before God. Hebrews 4:13 ,”And no creature is hidden from His sight, but all are naked and exposed to the eyes of Him to whom we must give an account.” God knows everything about me, all my sins, all my shortcomings, and He knew BEFORE THE FOUNDATION OF THE WORLD! He looked upon me, this sinner from eternity past and just fill in the blank with your name, He said, “I want ________ In my family. I see their sins and their flaws, but I am going to send my Son to die in their place.” Thats Love! Thats MEGA LOVE, if your not laughing or smiling or at least a bit joyful about that. Check to see if your exciter is broken. God loves you. and doesn’t want you to be overcome by His wrath and spend an eternity with God in Hell, We have broken God’s laws and we deserve Hell ,yet He poured out His wrath on His Son. the book of Isaiah tells us that It pleased God to crush Him. why? because HE is all-knowing and He knew that by His Son and the perfect sacrifice He is, we would be shown the power of God through His resurrection and would attain that. Like God proved that He has power of Sin and Death. Sin killed Him, Death Killed Him, but He didn’t stay dead yet, life prevailed and the light shone into the darkness. We can now be born again to a living hope. That just excites me. I’m not perfect, I am messed up, but a building project of God’s that is in progress.


So much is happening in my life. A lot of it I can’t really explain over this blog, those who are close to me know and understand sorta. But i just wanted to share that I don’t have it all together, that God is still working on me and that HE wants all of us to abandon self and run to Him, trust in Him. because i see that in our society, we live in luxury as if we don’t need anything, but we do. We need God. I don’t want to become like Sodom, just read Ezekiel 16:49,50 “Behold, this was the guilt of your sister Sodom; she and her daughters had pride, excess of food, and prosperous ease, but did not aid the poor and needy. They were haughty and did an abomination before me. So I removed them, when I saw it.

I always thought God destroyed Sodom and Gomorrah because of their homosexual sin that was an abomination to God. and yes that was part of it. but He says there that they “had pride, excess of food, and prosperous ease.” I look at my own life and have seen areas of pride. When I worry, or have unbelief, thats pride. When I think I am doing great that day and living all on my own strength, that is pride. Like i live in ease an luxury. Life is easy. even though i may have made a big deal for working 35-56 hours a week. like I am fortunate to have a job and get paid 7.25$ an hour. but my life is easy. I work, eat, sleep, read my bible, go to church, hardly face persecution or something that is going to shake my faith, living in my comfort zone. Life in many ways has brought its trials but overall I’ve got it easy. Sometimes I feel like our world needs to be shaken up so we can be reminded of who we are and Who God is.


God is just broadening my world-view, I just am seeing needs, and i know I can’t meet them all, but it’s just such a huge burden, but God calls me to hand over that burden to Him. It is His, is it not? God’s burden is light, right? His yoke is easy, right? So I shouldn’t try and act as if I am the savior, but to point people unto the Savior. To tell people what has already captured my Gaze. Hebrews 1:3 “He is the radiance of the glory of God and the exact imprint of His nature, and He upholds the universe by the word of His power. After making purification for sins, he sat down at the right hand of the Majesty on high,”God is so Huge! He is self-sufficient, God doesn’t need me, He can save the world without me, but He wants me, He wants to use me and you. Faith needs to meet action. through giving of my time and money. but for His kingdom, not for my glory, but for His. I am so guh apart from Christ. I need to abide(be rooted) in the vine. I am just a branch and Jesus is the Vine, I only can bear fruit through being connected to the vine. I know I am babbling, its late. I am just learning a lot. God is showing me so much, like reasons why I am in Texas, things I need to learn, to just really eat of the fruit of Texas, the spiritual fruit. plants seeds and water, and watch some things come to fruition. I am excited to be apart of what God is doing in the world, and how i can serve Him as a young 21 year old college student who in Americas eyes doesn’t have a lot of money, in America’s eyes i am poor. but in the other 80% of the peoples of the world, through there eyes they say I’m rich, as a matter of fact filthy rich. The other day i was riding with my Nepali friend in my car. He was talking to me about getting a car and told me that I have a very nice car, and that I was rich. I kinda chuckled and moved on but then it hit me… i thought to myself, “Wow, i actually think I am poor, living pay check to pay check. like i am so rich, i am well off. “prosperous ease, pride, excess of food.” most people around the world make 1$ a day. and live off of it, they feed there families with it, if they can. How am I handling it all? It is the holidays, am i giving of my time and money and just seeking the kingdom of God and His righteousness? Like Christmas time can be horrible if you get stressed out about all the shopping and food preparation and everything else thats not of Christ. It’s not worth it. Christmas is about a miracle. God becoming a man and dying for our sins. Thats amazing grace right there. I am so satisfied to never receive a gift under a Christmas tree, it’s nice and all, but I just want Jesus and to be reminded. In the Old Testament, Deuteronomy 8, it’s all about remembering God.

It is so very important. verses 11-14 “Take care lest you forget the Lord your God by not keeping His commandments and His rules and His statutes, which I command you today, lest, when you have eaten and are full and have built good houses and live in them, and when your herds and flocks multiply and your silver and gold is multiplied, then your heart will be lifted up, and you forget the Lord your God…” that whole chapter just dig in.

I don’t want to be like Laodiciea (read Revelation 3) I don’t want to think I have prospered and need nothing, God wants me to overcome and conqueror, but only in Him, Through Him and By Him can I conqueror, because our God is a warrior God. Calling me to fight the good fight of faith. of which, by God’s grace I shall persevere to the end. He is worth it, nothing else is worth living for. Go Hard or Go Home. I don’t know God what your going to do with my life, but I know you bought this life, the life of Travis McNeely, with the blood of Jesus, I am not my own. I am Yours. It’s so easy to speak about Jesus, but Lord I pray that I myself and those whom follow you, your church, would be a people refined through the fire and that will walk with you by faith. We need you, and need to live like it, especially myself. God you alone are Worthy. “I am Yours, Save me!”


“If you are not firm in your faith, you will not be firm at all.” Isaiah 7:9


p.s. i kinda babbled sometimes in this blog. Words are precious… I’m trying to learn not to talk so much. God is good. Amen.

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